Real Sad

Now first I should say that I am OK - I will not crumble, I will not stumble. I was believing I was receiving mixed signals. More upsetting, I was getting no signals. Then I got what I thought was the stop signal.

I feel sad.

I don't feel hurt or depressed, self-pitying or dispossessed.

No, this is an honest emotion, a valid, even (yes!) humble notion - mayhap, the first authentic sentiment since this rebirth I underwent. Yes, that I can taste this heartache - the feeling that I can partake - boosts my belief when this feeling's done that I'll find relief in another one.

Now first I should say

That I am OK -

I will not crumble,

I will not stumble.

I was believing

I was receiving

Mixed signals.

More upsetting,

I was getting

No signals.

Then I got

What I thought

Was the stop signal.

I feel sad.

I don't feel hurt or depressed,

Self-pitying or dispossessed.

No,

This is an honest emotion,

A valid, even (yes!) humble notion -

Mayhap,

The first authentic sentiment

Since this rebirth I underwent.

Yes,

That I can taste this heartache -

The feeling that I can partake -

Boosts my belief

When this feeling's done

That I'll find relief

In another one.